Day one of the migraine I tried to push through. Pain level 8. I worked until about 1:30 that afternoon. I took sinus pills and over the counter migraine medication. (I really have been trying not to take medication and rely on natural remedies). I went to lunch and did not return. It would have been time for me to go home anyway if I had. I tried to walk and de-stress. I got nauseated at lunch and could not enjoy the day. I ended up coming home and going directly to bed after using my peppermint and rosemary. I diffused calming blend and purify to clean whatever stressors from the environment.
Day two, I woke up at 5:30 yesterday morning and my head was worse. Pain level 10. My vision was blurred and my left side of my body was numb. Imagine the numbness you feel when your leg falls asleep. Now imagine it being 5 times worse. I limped around the house, tried to stay hydrated and sat in front of the fireplace doing nothing. I ended up showering and going back to bed where I stayed the rest of the day. I put peppermint and ylang-ylang on my feet and more rosemary, peppermint and ylang-ylang on my temples and back of my neck. I buried my head under the pillows to block the light. I drifted in and out until 10:30 when I went back to sleep.
I realize that this may not just be the complex migraine but also fibromyalgia. I have lower back, neck, shoulder and elbow pain. It feels as if someone is drilling into my skull while beating the crap out of the rest of my body. At this point I have tried the over the counter meds, some prescription, essential oils and teas. I know the steps at this point. No alcohol, plenty of rest, nothing artificial, no sodium, plenty of water and no stress. The last part is the most difficult. How am I not to stress? I am missing work. Both jobs. I am in pain. I am not used to being sedentary.
I try to get my mind off of it all by watching television. As I sit here on day 3 and re-watch what I did last night, I don't remember seeing most of this. My brain really shut down.
Day three, I am losing my schedule. I could not wake up this morning. I am normally up and moving before the alarm. I finally got out of bed at 10:30 my head is slightly better. Pain level 6. More tea and toast. Nose is bleeding now, great! The numbness is still there but his old companion chest pains have come along for the ride. No I do not need to go to the hospital. This is how my body handles the stress of the pain. I have had my heart thoroughly checked.
After eating, I came back to bed and am trying to do something to help me forget about the pain. Writing, reading and crochet are my outlets I can do from the bed. Walking is out because it is cold and rainy. Cold increased the fibro pain and helps the head. I will definitely have to cancel my client today as well as work. Called work and let them know. Sent a text to my client thankfully she can do another day. That gives me another day to recoup.
I keep writing my current story for two reasons. It is serving as a journal for me to chronicle my episodes. It also is an outlet to release stress and frustration with my condition. On the outside I appear together and I try to feel like that on the inside. I keep going sometimes because if I stop I am afraid I will not be able to start again. My conditions of complex migraines and fibromyalgia sometimes leave me depressed, weak and impatient. It has been a long time since I have been this bad. Six years ago I was suffering and taking so many pills to just exist. I never want to be like that again. If you meet me or someone like me, know that we would rather be anywhere but in bed. We would do almost anything to get rid of the pain. Believe me I am doing everything short of acupuncture. I will be looking into that soon. The oils are working better with todays combination of roman chamomile and frankincense taken internally under the tongue every 30 minutes. This has got to go away.
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